Today, as I was getting ready to go to church, I was listening to Pandora Radio. The song Blasphemous Rumours by Depeche Mode came on the radio when I was listening to the Red Hot Chili Peppers Station. My first thought, I admit, was: Great! Just what I need to hear before church. But the more I thought about the song, and listened to the lyrics, I began to truly appreciate the view of its writer. This was largely because I understand what it is like to completely lose faith in the Lord. And it is truly a great song in that it shows what a lack of faith can do to a person.
The song’s chorus rings out through the entire song:
I don’t want to start any blasphemous rumours
But I think that God’s got a sick sense of humor
And when I die I expect to find Him laughing
The exception is the first, second, fifth, and sixth stanzas. The first and second stanzas are about a girl who — “bored with life” — slashes her wrists but manages to survive the attempt of suicide. The saddened mother reads her note again and falls to her knees in prayer. The fifth and sixth stanzas, describe a woman who — at the age of 18 — was hit by a car and died right after having “Found new life in Jesus Christ”. Combined with the chorus above, the entire song makes God look very ominous and cruel. And many atheists subscribe to this description. But, as a Christian, I feel that nothing can be further from the truth.
Sure, bad things happen to good people. But this can be blamed partially on Satan and partially on God’s plan for our lives and afterlives. The book of Job shows how God’s former favorite angel and now greatest enemy is wagering Him that he can make Job lose his faith. And God accepted this wager. Later, after Satan took most of the people and things most important to Job, the bitter man questioned God about it. God, more or less, told Job that his mere human, mortal mind could not possibly fathom an understanding into what makes Him do the things He does. In the end, Job doesn’t lose his faith.
Many Christians, myself included, can relate to how hard Satan will work to pull us away from God as we draw closer. I am ashamed to admit that I, not very long ago, allowed him to do so with me. And, on a very personal note, could have lost my life as a result of it. Yes, I actually and seriously considered on taking my own life after completely losing my faith. Luckily for me, afterward, I met a friend who helped me get my head out of my ass and put everything back into perspective. And this fellow effectively saved my life!
I personally feel that God sometimes allows the Devil to have his way with us; but rarely does He allow him to put more on us than we can truly handle. In most cases, if we draw closer to Him in spirit and faith, we can overcome anything that Satan throws at us. And if we die trying, I believe that God has a reason for calling us home to be with him and the other Christians in our lives who have gone before us. This is what faith is all about. And without it, not only can we die here, but we can also die in the hereafter.
Some of you may not be Christians. Maybe you are agnostics or atheists. I do not judge you for what you believe. As a matter of fact, having been there once myself, I truly respect you for the way you feel. But I will never be able to go back there again, since I almost lost my life and afterlife after having danced that nasty tango with Satan himself.